dan wrote:Sounds like killing is more important than hunting? Its the pursuit that drives me. Not the kill. Killing a buck is almost a bummer. My hunt then ends. Do what makes you happy, and do not worry about the end result. No one but you really cares if you shoot one. Some of the greatest hunters I know, rarely kill a buck, and some of the worst hunters I know kill one every year... Its all in the eyes of the beholder.
In my opinion, and you will likely disagree, I think your worried about others opinions. Otherwise a head on the wall wouldn't be so important. Hunting is not a game, so there is no such thing as quitting. I know hunters who have not hunted in years, and likely never will again before they die... That does not make them less of a hunter than me. Hunting is a lifestyle, its in your heart. Not hanging on your walls.
What a great post Dan!
I was going to write something eerily similar, but you put it so much more eloquently.
I want to add this too though; if you still want to find that enthusiasm for hunting again, take a new hunter under your wing. (young or old) I have done that many times over the years and it always reignites a spark in me.
Not all of them pan out and some won't mesh with you as a hunter, but new hunters always have that fresh new fire and enthusiasm that comes only with the start of a new road to travel. It's infectious and you can't help but be reminded of years gone by and why you started hunting.
I absolutely LOVE LOVE LOVE hunting deer, it's been a part of me since I was a little kid. Matching wits with mature bucks, being right there in nature. Quietly observing the real world as it all unfolds. Trudging through swamps and up steep ridges. Carrying stands for hours, exploring new woods, sometimes wondering, has any other man ever set foot here (Dan probably has lol).... The work involved is the part that keeps me doing it. It's truly a labor of love.
Sure it can wear on you physically and even mentally, but when it gets you to that point, you get tougher and keep going. If it really gets you, there's never shame in taking a break either. This is LIFE...
I posted about this once before, but in the last year or so I have also kicked around the idea of not hunting anymore....Though for a different reason. I just don't enjoy killing deer anymore. It's always been a bummer like Dan said, but it has changed even more the last year or two. I want to eat venison, but I just hate killing them now. I just want to watch and learn, enjoy the woods.
Besides, my love for being outside and trying to outsmart deer hasn't allowed me to quit. I find myself in the woods more than ever. Sometimes I draw the bow, but I find it easier and easier to just sit and watch. I enjoy it more than ever now.
I'll leave you with two things the late Ben Lee said:
"When I get older and can't shoot, I'll go to chucking rocks at them" (meaning it's just so much a part of him, he could never stop hunting deer)
He also said:
"I wish I could shoot them and then breathe life back into them to do it all again tomorrow"
Those words have stayed with me for years...
This year I have been mentoring a disabled Veteran that's trying to learn to bowhunt. He's a little older than me, his body is more beat up from his service and he doesn't live close enough to hunt with me often. But his constant yearning to learn drives me out there to learn more myself....What can I teach him, what can I learn. We have conversations about hunts and observations and it ignites that spark in me again. It's then I realize that I am a "HUNTER" down to my core.
He killed his second deer ever about a week ago and I felt as proud as a new dad. Yes, he's made some mistakes, taken some bad shots, but I'm trying to steer him down the right path and I explained that it's part of becoming a bow hunter and that he has to make some mistakes.
Anyway, I'm getting long winded and side-tracked as usual....my point is...re-read Dans post and if you're in it for the right reasons, you'll want to hunt no matter what. Doesn't mean you have to kill....but you'll forever want to hunt.
If that's not enough to keep you motivated, find a kid or anyone thats new and needs guidance. Take it back to the basics with them and you might just rediscover why we have no choice but to hunt.
Good luck out there! -Matt